I have to share this bit of news because it truly changed my life. A few months ago, I went to my doctor and they detected a mass on my pelvic region. The doctor ordered more scans/imaging to decipher whether the mass was a leiomyoma or a leiomyosarcoma. Leiomyoma is also known as uterine fibroid. It is a benign smooth muscle tumor that very rarely becomes cancerous. Contrariwise, leiomyosarcoma is a malignant smooth muscle tumor. It is a rare and aggressive form of uterine cancer.
Naturally, I was flabbergasted; I asked “why me Lord, I’m in the prime of my life”. I was devastated and distraught, of course. However, I had to lean on the methods that work best. I know that God is “The Great Physician” so I turned to prayer and meditation. I also know the power of surrounding yourselves with loved ones, so I clung to my husband, lovely sisters, mom, and wonderful friends. I also increased my level of gratitude for everything that I’ve been given—you never what you have until you think you might lose it all. I begged and besieged God to allow me to be cancer free. I even bargained with Him, saying that I would use my time more wisely and for His purpose; if he spared me from cancer. You cannot even imagine my level fear and frustration at this point. I mean, I always thought that I was a decent person who tries to live right spiritually, physically, and emotionally.
After adapting a positive daily routine of prayer, meditation, hanging out with loved ones, and staying busy; I sopped asking why. Instead of asking why, I started asking what…what next Lord? As many of you already know, I’m a multifaceted girl: spiritual, knowledgeable/analytical, and health driven. I knew that God wanted to get my attention to do something greater; so I rested on that fact.
My sisters, church, friends fasted/prayed with me; and my sweet mommy kept reading Psalm 27 over me. She kept saying: The Lord is your strength; of whom (or what) shall you be afraid? She kept telling me to pray and wait for a miracle. I can go on and on about the journey, but It would take all night—I have to get ready for my surgery.
To make a long story short, my oncologist viewed the CT scans and quickly ruled the mass as cancerous and scheduled surgery, as well as a few rounds of chemotherapy pre and/or postoperative. Being a health scientist and knowing the effect of chemo on the body and healthy cells, I was reserved and very reticent. Now, don’t get me wrong; there are times where chemotherapy is necessary, but I wanted to be sure what I was up against. Thankfully, God steered my doctor to present my case to the tumor board and they ordered a biopsy to test the cells. I won’t keep you in suspense—two days ago, I received the results; which revealed that the mass is benign!!!! I can’t tell you my relief, I feel as if I have been given a new lease on life; hence this blog entry. I want to tell you that God is loving and merciful. I want to publicly thank Him for hearing my cries.
To my friends who are facing cancer, He is still there—seek His face. You will be amazed; he will not let you down. And for those who have lost loved ones to the battle, remember Psalm 48:14—He will be our guide even to death. I remember reading Malachi 4:2, which states that the sun will rise with healing in its wings and that I would leap like a young calf. I spoke that scripture over my life daily as I regularly meditated at the beach before sunrise. Dear friends, please find scriptures and positive affirmations that comfort you and cling to them.
I will definitely keep up with the new positive behaviors that I’ve added to my daily routine. Furthermore, since I’m always on a mission to help others in their health journey; I urge you to honor your temple, protect your vessel/body by eating the right foods and herbs that have healing properties. Powerful herbs:
Turmeric – anti-inflammatory agent
Gymnema sylvestre – sugar regulator
Ashwagandha – adaptogenic and energy booster
Finally, there are no current research that proves the cause of tumors or fibroids, which is prevalent in black women. However, I will do more research on the topic and share my findings with you.
I want to close with these thoughts: Let us come before him with thanksgiving and extol him with music and song. For the LORD is the great God, the great King above all gods~Psalm 95:2-3. God is amazing—He comforted me in my time of need, and He heard me when I cried. Surely it was for my benefit that I suffered such anguish`Isaiah 38:17. All glory and praise be to Him.